Today my Mum returns from Las Vegas and I have to break the news to her that I am not, as she thought I was, having an abortion. I am so scared! I know she will think I am ruining my life by keeping it, I just hope she stands by her word to support me whatever my decision.

I just have to have faith that I have made the right decision. Hopefully her jetlag may mean that she is tired, drowsy and accepting! I really need her to be on my side, I need at least one person who I feel is wholeheartedly behind me. J can't cope himself let alone try and support me.

Scared. Really, really scared.