Looks like I may have to go through with the abortion after all. I can't bear how much this is upsetting everyone around me.

I just had my Mum on the phone crying her eyes out, so upset about how she doesn't think I can cope with it, that it's going to ruin my life, that she wants so much more for me and she doesn't know how I'm going to do it.

I'm starting to think that maybe everyone being so against this is enough for me to have a termination. Do I want to bring a child into the world when I am the only person who comes close to wanting it? To everyone else this is an all out disaster. Whilst I appreciate it's not the ideal situation, I also don't think it's the worst thing in the world. Surely bringing a new life into the world can never be THAT bad?

It's not like we're massively poor, deprived and really can't afford to offer it any quality of life. Am I kidding myself that keeping it is a viable option? Maybe everyone else has a point and I think I'd rather be very unhappy than continue to see everyone else completely devastated. Perhaps I will be ok having a termination, lot's of people do it and they are fine with it after. I'm sure it's for the best.