The inevitable has occurred... J has said that he doesn't want us to do it together. So I'm now officially a single mum to be. Thank the lord for my amazing family!
J (a 27 year old grown man, I might add) is petrified of his parents reaction, so scared he won't tell them. He is going to wait until my 12 week scan - not sure what he thinks is going to happen between now and then. I'm certainly not going to change my mind just because he is deserting me.
His parent issues aside, he doesn't want to be with me and doesn't even want to try and raise our baby together. I'm hoping at some point he will change his mind but I can't see it happening myself. All I'm going to do is get fatter and less attractive so hardly going to be able to lure him back to me with my sexyness. Plus, I'm a hormonal psychopath which isn't hot.
I don't know what to do... He is going on holiday next week and is obviously going to go out and sleep with loads of people and there is nothing I can do about it. It's killing me, I feel so stressed, out of control and upset by him and this whole situation. I just want to be able to say to my baby when it's older that Daddy and I tried but it didn't work out. I can't even say that, it's more along the lines of Daddy couldn't be arsed as he is more concerned with going out and getting laid.
Arrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Why can't he just turn around, tell me he loves me and that we'll do this together??
I've just told him that I won't be seeing him/sleeping with him again in that capacity. I'm not a toy and it is too hard for me to spend lots of time with him when I know that he doesn't want to be with me. Maybe this will shock him into action. Doubt it.
